JJ`s Ramblings ..about exploring, updates, pvp, perspectives, understandings & more lol

hiya guys n gals how is every1 ? ;]

i wasnt sure where really to put this and sorry its a long read as always but im sure once uve read it all u will understand me more and why im saying what im saying ...soo.. right to it then ;]

well with me i caught the exploring bug again and been around, to RT, Ni, ark moon, and im still not done lol
but doing so just b4 and after the big updates i gotta say, im enjoying it more not having to be on guard so much, wondering if some quad was gonna emerge and blow my sleip or quad to bits the 2nd i left the ss safe zone, just to see if i was carrying anything lol

this also got me thinking, its gonna be jj`s entropian birthday soon and was thinking what kind of future do i want jj to have in the long term, what her goals should be etc, and i thought well i wanna be a miner a trader, crafter, event planner, and just about anything else i can think of, but 1 thing was clear it far outweighed what interests i have in pvp after all its not good for business if ur killing people too much, some if not most dont like it lol

but while were still kinda on the topic of space and pvp, it got me wondering, where are the pirates now? what do they think about this space change?, so once again i played that game i call mind swap, basically what i do is i take my role play and thought process to a whole other level by attempting to think like the person or my enemies, what would i be thinking? where would i be if i were them etc. but i i didnt stop there, i spent several days and many hrs of going thru just about anything i could find on people, how they act, who they have problems with past and present, and after all that searching on the net and forums and videos etc i found some of it to be so stupid and toxic, and having seen that neither sides were quite as 100% squeaky clean as they make out, i even found my self starting to get a little irritated and felt like my eyes and ears might fall off my head lol

so i kinda get now why people like Dylan, who have more important jobs they would rather be focusing on like fixing any bugs there might be, and helping people with questions etc, rather than have to waste time on endless toxic drama, so i can see why he gets a bit stressed and agitated to to the point where it brings out the nasty as he calls it ... or is that his lama?.. not sure on its name lol

this also got me wondering why are some so against pvp anyway, loot able or not lol?, so u know ur in pvp, u can be kill or be killed, or even looted, i and some others in the past would say, ah get over it n stop being a baby right? and with me not caring about getting killed and not even carrying loot, especially in space, i never really stopped to think about it properly from other peoples perspectives,

so once again i played mind swap and tried to think how all participants would probably think, from the noob, to the explorers, to the pirates, to the anti pirates, mind ark, and even the planet partners, and players who have invested large sums of money into their apartments and shops and other businesses / services etc

and its while i was doing all this a bigger picture began form and i began to understand why some, who are not as mellow and fearless as i am, could get quite frustrated at others, who in their eyes is forcing upon them pvp which they may not be interested in at all, and how piracy could have a negative effect on planet partners and players who have set up their homes and businesses there
after all if some people dont want to go into space because of pirates this ofc means less people would explore other planets
and simply just make their homes and businesses on caly, which is no big deal if u live on caly and no big deal for mind ark, this is why i think mind ark changed space recently so as to try and make it more balanced and fair to other planet partners and players in general.

however if u are a pirate u would say how is this fair? i depo just as much perhaps even more and yet im treated like filth wherever i go, i dont like this space change, well look at it this way it seems we can now hunt space mobs without the risk of getting looted (well in training grounds such as those near planets) i presume the training grounds in deep space are loot able, so still plenty to shoot at ;], but also what people also forget is space is 3d u can go up and down so this means if mind ark or planet partners chose to, they could have loo-table areas above and blow perhaps, maybe asteroids u could mine on if u are willing to brave the risk of better finds and loots, knowing at any moment some1 might kill u and take it all lol

but to try n keep it fair for all players play styles i think for those that love loot able there should be higher reward worth the risk to go in in the 1st place, like say pvp4 on arkadia there could be a arctic rig that would drop higher amounts of oil, but they could make it a larger area, so plenty of places to attempt to hide from player killers as they try to find and kill u lol

and yes i have mined in pvp 4 on ark but none ever even seen me hehehehe ;] bet they all going there now to try, well good luck with that i might not go in again for months lol

but just like that, the mining in space could be similar, higher risk, places to hide or even stalk from ;]

and its also come to my attention that apparently ark advisors may have the ability to spawn mobs, well that sounds cool i myself would like to be able to do this eventually as a event planner/helper, but what i didnt get at 1st is why they refused to allegedly spawn a mob for a pirate.. for me personally this didnt seem fair, what he does in space should not affect his right to hunt and participate on arkadian soil right?, after all his ped is just as good as any1 else's, i also learnt advisors are not allowed to kill any in space or pvp4 but are allowed to kill in normal pvp which ofc at 1st didnt make sense considering they have pvp4 on ark, till i remembered that at the time, when all of space was loot-able, it could be detrimental to a planet partner and its players

and when i think about it from a planet partners / officials / advisors point of view its bad for business and bad in general to be seen supporting players that loot those not interested in pvp, and loosing money and loots because of it, some can be very unforgiving lol, and b4 dylans drama lama is set on me i only ask that u read it all 1st as it will all become clear and why im saying what im saying at the end ;]

right.. 1st off i myself have made 1 or 2 mistakes in the past, the biggest ever was was that 1 and only time i did kill and loot 2 people in space after destroying the pilots sleip lol, at the time i thought the pilot deserved it for his betrayal and attacking me 1st, ofc the passenger did see the funny side and as promised i returned his loot to him, later on, ofc at the time it had always been the plan to return any loots i got, and even cover the repair of the pilots ship after my fun/revenge/ training exercise was done, but it didnt go that way, things only got worse as the pilot was furious and banned me from the organization and blocked and unfriended me b4 i could explain why i did what i did, so i tried to explain it to the rest of the organization and that it didnt seem fair that i was getting all the punishment when the person who started it was facing no action against him whatsoever, ofc it got even worse cos then i was convinced that this person had set me up and had wanted me gone from the organization all along and the funny irony of it was i had fallen for this trap lol, and even worse convinced of all this i was determined to expose this person for the scum dog i thought he was and his organization for what they really were, biased power hungry control freaks, how dare i retaliate lol

however.. at the time i was seeing things only from my perspective and didnt have the level of understanding i do now and perhaps i was even so blinded with getting payback i overlooked some important things in my very own evidence lol

in this evidence i observed that this person was disappointed that i had done what i did and felt betrayed and did not want me gone from the organization and also mentioned why he had killed me, cos he had assumed i had killed him in 1 of the 3 times he had been killed by nusuls while he was afk,noted that this was said in pm after i had done what i did and thought at the time it was just lies to try and justify himself lol.. but why? it was said in pm so what would he have to gain if he had already got what he wanted lol... well as i said i was playing mind swap with every1 this includes this person and his organization.. and then i seen it from his and their point of view.. to them i attacked 1st and perhaps it was my plan to bait and systematically destroy the organizations reputation over time for starters.. but the question is who did attack this person with nusuls causing his death? was it just them being a troll? or perhaps were they hoping i would become their unwitting pawn and do their dirty work for them? who knows lol but i can tell u it was not me, yes i did tease with them, but never did i let them kill him, so i can see why he could come to the conclusion i might have killed him with them lol, and it seems im not the only person to make mistakes or get it wrong there is another advisor that did something so bad it was also against the rules and had i reported him for it he would have probably got a ban for it from mind ark and he was just having fun thinking he was doing no wrong, and yet despite him being reported to his superiors with proof i might add its seems he was forgiven and is still an ark advisor

i can already feel the irritated drama lama about to be released and possibly a ban hammer coming down on my own head but b4 and if it does id just like to say sorry guys its not the same person nor will i say who it was and what they did as the people who need to know already do ;] and furthermore my reasons for all this was not to cause drama or upset it was to try and help clear the air , help people understand me more, and more importantly demonstrate that things are not always as they seem, that we could get it wrong if we choose to see things only from our own perspective and understanding
a small little candle flame seems quite harmless until its given something to burn and can quickly become a blazing uncontrollable inferno lol

i know some are probably thinking here we go again any bets shes gonna try n use this to try and get back into the organization she was kicked from and be made an ark advisor or else lol.. well no ...it is true i could try n go down that route .. hell i might even succeed lol..but no this is not what i want well not by those means anyway i would rather it be cos i deserved and earnt it .. tho however i doubt this will ever happen but hey if that ark advisor was forgiven for his mistake while he was having fun i might 1 day be forgiven for mine lol

yes i do like to role play as this semi evil quirky fun avatar that enjoys toying with humans but its never my intention to actually hurt people and ruin their enjoyment of the game unless they are toxic people that deserve it lol but i in fact care more about having fun with all players and making friends along the way, will i still kill in pvp?....well maybe sometimes but now always for a reason even if its something small like not sharing a oil with me or didnt even bother to wave back lol and even so there is no guarantee i will kill at that moment could be hrs days weeks months etc but i am no big shot lol i just like to have fun ..will i ever loot some1 again? or kill in loot able?... kill maybe, but not without reason, as for looting no , i learnt from that mistake ;]

and to wrap up id like to offer an official apology to the person and his organization, seems we both made mistakes and misunderstood each other even tho i did take it way to far, u now have no need to watch ur backs from me ;] lol.. i dont expect to be invited to rejoin the organization i would however like to think there is no more ..nor will there be anymore hard feelings against each other, and i look forward to the future, working with and having fun with all players all organizations

sorry about the big read guys but i didnt know how to attempt to repair any bridges i burnt in the past and felt misunderstood so i thought the best way would be just to get it all of my chest so u understand me better why i did what i did and perhaps it may inspire some to reflect on their own past and current disputes with others the game is meant to be fun guys, proper hatred and toxicness shouldnt even have any place in it

incase it wasnt obvious yes JJ is a bit crazy , has adhd , ocd , possibly bit autistic ,...not really a good combo lol..and i bet some of u are thinking well that explains alot lol

but 1 thing is for sure if u meet JJ ur not likely to forget her any time soon lol

have fun guys n gals i look forward to stalking ...i mean meeting u guys in game

JJ ;]

 

holy....dung that looks alot more posted than it did in the short time it took me to type it lol....
but at least its unfiltered ..right from the heart and mind...
hopefully some of u are book worms like my self and enjoy a good read lol

 

lol spoke with a friend last nite he had this to say:

JJ ive been your friend for 11 yrs and probably understand you more than most. you asked me to read a post of yours to see what i thought, and its clear to me that you were probably drinking a little again weren't you? lol, but whats more disturbing is that you still appear to have not taken my advice about seeing a doctor and taking medication for your adhd?

i had to force myself to re-read parts of your post to try and fully understand what it was that you were trying to say and even then i did not fully understand and had to ask you to explain some of it to me over the phone lol.

you told me this game Entropia has players from all over the world. so what you need to understand is that for non native English speakers it can be difficult for them at times to fully understand the text they are reading if it is not typed in proper English. as you know my English is good but not my 1st language either and to be honest if i were not a good friend of yours i can honestly say i would not have read all of that post and probably have given up about halfway through. it was far too long and too much effort to make sense of lol.

as far as your post is concerned i will now tell you what i think :

you now enjoy exploring space and planets more since the recent updates and feel you don't have to look over your shoulder as much since several areas have now been made non loot-able. however you think further improvements could be made by including more loot-able areas at higher or lower altitudes in space to cater for players who prefer loot-able areas such as risk takers and pirates and the possibility of space mining. and as for land based you would like to see more loot-able areas with more valuable resources that function similar to the oil rigs

you should also have been more clear that although you try to be sympathetic to all players in the game and how they play that you yourself are not a pirate nor do you support or condone their actions and others that take part in the looting of other players

as i understand it you also attempted to try and think how all other players of the game might think?. don't do that its an impossible task ive known my wife a lot longer than you JJ and even i almost always get it wrong and im convinced even she doesn't even understand what shes thinking half the time never mind me but don't tell her i said that lol

i also know you well enough JJ to know you are a good person. but some parts of your post paint you in a very different light. there are things that you should not have mentioned and kept to yourself. to me it looked like you were trying to apologize to a individual and the group he belonged to about your misunderstanding and actions you did in the past. but at the same time (although you might not have intended it) im pretty sure you have upset these arkadian advisors also. and now you owe them an apology lol since you did possibly divulge confidential information i think they would rather have kept on a need to know basis about their capabilities and to make matters worse u accused 1 of their members of committing an offense so bad in game that it would have probably gotten them a ban had you reported them. if i were them JJ i would not be happy with you right now lol

you know you could have avoided all this hassle you caused for yourself in the 1st place by simply asking the person who attacked you 1st why he killed you at the time and not sought revenge by destroying his ship and killing him and his passenger. the passenger had nothing to do with it and although you didn't mention if this player you took revenge on and killed was the leader of the group or not you still broke the rules of the group and rightfully so your membership was terminated and furthermore you for some reason got it into your head that you were the victim and set up by this person and that he and the group treated you unfairly and u proceeded to not only try to clear your name but also tried to expose and ruin this person and the groups reputation. im sorry JJ but this makes you look very paranoid and petty and a person like that would not be welcome in my group either if i had one. and could you honestly say you would allow a person like that in yours? no? i didn't think so lol

i know you explained to me you like to role play and play this semi evil avatar but if you expect people to trust you they need to know the difference. i would suggest you keep the evil side to role play only events where other participants know they are participating in a role play event such as making a game movie or something

also its not enough to tell people what your like and what your about you have to show them and prove it. you want to know how you fix this? well you start by saying your sorry to these people and that you will try to change and then go prove it

don't say anything else and lastly don't forget. think before you speak or type and you will save yourself a lot of hassle and please for everyone's sanity keep any further posts as short as possible lol feel free to use what i sent to you if you think it will help

good luck JJ hope things turn out good for you

Randy

 

well here it is

sorry guys for any upset i caused or was part of in the past due to my misunderstandings at the time i will try to change and be a more respected and loved member of the community

JJ

 

It is good to see you posting again JJ.
If I could say anything its never apologise, never explain. Your friends will understand but your enemies never will.
Besides how do people get to be enemies anyway?

 

Nice long read. Good luck in your endeavors both in and out of pvp.